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I seriously don’t know, but maybe it’s me? Maybe it’s me who destroys all the chances by going to fast forward? Maybe it’s me who makes him unsure? Oh my gosh, after all I blamed him for it was all my fault. Kill me noooow, shit.. SO FUCKING MESSED UP. Fuck, I have to ask for forgivness, now that I’m pretty sure that I caused almost Everything, kill me slowly…

I seriously missed everything. I don’t know how but G is treating me so well, he treats me like a princess. But I’m sure he’ll treat me like trash tomorrow. It’s monday tomorrow, which means school. Another day with pain. I know that he is in the same building as me everyday but still it feels like he’s thousands of miles away. And he keep avoiding me. I can’t go a day without thinking about him, why? ‘cuz I love hi, and he’s me everything. I can’t move on without him in my life, I just can’t. Im so messed up, fuck this..

My name is Amanda and I’m thirteen, fourteen soon. I’m writing ‘bout my miserable life and all my feelings about G. G is a boy I’m in love with.
Xx A